Truth

I've got to die to myself     
     hide in the wounds of Christ
Humbly declare my depravity
     apart from the resurrected Man

To loose the bonds of the world
    even if I look foolish
My Lover puts to shame
     the mighty acts of the world

My life is not my own
    forsaking it all to be a disciple
I shall lose my reputation
    in the abandonment

My frail frame supported by the Cross
     a weak yes ravishes
This is who I am
    but dust yet eternal

I will follow the Lamb
     wherever He goes
You know me well
     what you say is true

The American dream is not my reality
    I believe Your evaluation above man's
Beauty for ashes
     pure love, no false motives

None Like God

Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, to God who alone is wide, be honor and glory forever and ever Amen. 1 Timothy 1:17

It completely makes sense to me now why all honor and glory belong to God forever and ever. He alone is wise. Isaiah 40, Who instructed Him and taught Him in the path of justice? Who taught Him knowledge and showed Him the way of understanding? Clearly, He possess all understanding, all thoughts of man are inferior to Him. Thus render Him all honor and glory.

For why on earth should any mortal creation receive praise? The Father of rain, the Giver of life, the One who commanded the morning. Who is like God? Because He is I AM. Because He’s always been existing, eternity past and future. He’s outside of time. He is immortal. Nothing can take His life, Jesus offered Himself up as a sacrifice. He is completely and totally other than. He is invisible. I cannot see Him, for if I did surely I might die.

He is holy. He is mighty. Oh, woe is me for I am undone! A woman of unclean lips. I cannot even fathom what I could possibly imagine Him to be like. For what likeness will I compare to Him? None. Nothing. No one. He is incomparably different. He is so perfect, so good, so indescribable. There are no words to depict Him and that is quite alright.

The Cry of my Heart

I just want to love You Jesus. Why can’t the world see that it has freedom screaming out to them from the inside of their spirit. Jesus won’t You come and back and fully redeem us to You. Come and make the dark world bright with Your light. Will You awaken hearts to the knowledge of the truth of Your heart for Your created ones, made in the image of You.You are holy, fairer than the sons of men. You never change, you are glorious, radiant and beautiful. Come back Jesus. I need You more than I know. Vindicate me O Lord by Your coming. I desperately seek Your face but all I have is this dimly lit mirror. Come and restore clarity. Humanity is so far from Your original design.I cry out from the depths of my heart and stand in the gap for humanity and plead with You to come back. I need You, I cannot deny my inherent need of a Savior, You. All flesh is grass fading away only You last, only You remain.

I’m not worthy of Your sacrifice yet You see me as worth it. How can that be? Such a wretch like me, a hopeless basket case. Yet You made me and You love me, every single part. Even the past is wiped clean. The character traits that I think are displeasing You have declared it good. I am in You and You are in me. Take me to the place where You are. You are holy. I want to stand before Your throne of grace completely held captive by Your beauty. I want to gaze in fascination at the emerald rainbow of mercy that surrounds Your throne. I’m thirsting for You in this dry and weary land. Oh how I need You, oh how I long for You face to face.

I know one day we will be together. You will open up the gates of New Jerusalem and say, “Enter and find rest My child.” There will be no need for the sun for the Son shall the light, You will be my sunshine. I will have a new name, a new body glorified like Jesus’, and the capacity to freely receive from You and bow before Your feet in worship for days on end since there will be no night there. Eternity is just a shore. I want to swim in Your kindness and love for me. I’ve never loved like this, I’ve never been so in love. Bridegroom, King and Judge won’t You take me into You completely one day.

Expand my capacity for more of You Holy Spirit. Strengthen my inner man. Let my will be pleasing to You. I delight in Your word daily, it is the lamp unto my path. Guide me now and forevermore I pray.

Hallelujah Amen!